So my timeline has been so full of the stories of a wife, cheated by her husband for a 19 year old girl, I guess. Have been friends or a couple since 2007. Just got married for like 6 weeks when she found out that her husband had found another girl. Wow.
Being in a surrounding of cheated husbands vs loyal wives, I knew right away who's the one to blame.
I then read the story of her. As a silent reader, I feel the urge to know what was in her husband's mind. Then his story came out. Istikharah, he said. He prayed and he's not seeing her ex wife's face in his dreams, probably. Pathetic.
How high is your imaan? Setandingkah dengan Rasul Allah, atau wali Allah that you thought Allah would simply give you a way out? You thought Allah would simply gave you a glimpse of her eyes, or the sound of her voice in your head while you sleep to make sure she's the one you're looking for? Seriously dude?
Were you living the life Allah asked you to? Have you done your part? Have you served your parents right? How about your prayers? How about your social life?
Iman kita senipis kulit bawang. Mudah sangat setan nak masuk jarum. Okay Ramadhan. Setan takde. Nafsu ada though.
Your istikharah won't take you anywhere bila you were confused! You prayed but deep in your heart, you wanted to be with the other girl. Memanglah you mimpi dia. Claimed Allah bagi petunjuk. Oh gosh. You already knew what you wanted. What's the point of your istikharah then?
Same case with a friend of mine.
Luckily belum sampai part menikah. Kawan ni gila la kat mamat ni. Couple aronnd a month or so, the guy asked to break up. Reason? Istikharah. LOL. He saw another girl in his dream so he talked to the girl, and turned out, the girl pun suka dia juga omg.
My friend ni? Because of that one istikharah that he actually already knew which girl he wanted, cuma menggunakan alasan istikharah so that he seemed pious or what I don't know, he ruined a life. Pity.
Tapi okaylah. Dah selamat menikah dengan girl in his dreams tu. So we take it as jodoh lah.
When I first felt something with Ed, I did istikharah as well. I saw nothing. Then I looked at myself. A sinner I was. Slowly, I changed myself to be better. Still am.
One thing I remember, my husband once said, if you really knew what you wanted, go for it. Bukan istikharah. Tapi solat hajat. Minta Allah lembutkan hati orang2 berkenaan. Hati semuanya milik Dia. Dia ada kuasa. Dia boleh bolak balikkan hati manusia sekelip mata. Solat hajat lah.
So I did. Amazingly, it worked.
Solat hajat is different, I guess. Istikharah is like, kita minta Allah tunjukkan jalan. Macam mana kalau hati kita hitam? Jalan pun tak jumpa ke hati kita. Setan berlambak lambak depan mata, dalam hati.
Solat hajat, we asked what we want. Macam sama pulak kan, tapi it's different. It's the power of mind juga yang youols duk baca The Secret la, Magnet Kekayaan, or Law of Attraction. Ha macam tu lah. Dengan izin Dia, in shaa Allah, dia tunaikan. But change ourselves la. Be better.
Istikharah is for, choosing between two different things yang kita tak rasa biased pun. Yang takde rasa I sebenarnya nak this one, tapi maybe kalau masuk mimpi then I can confirm my decision. So I hope my decision will be in my dreams. Hahs. Got it?
Hadoila. Ok lah sekian repekan saya. Selamat bersahur.